It pays to be pessimistic. That way when something goes right, you get to be all ‘ha! that’s nice!!’ . Plan as you usually do, but expect nothing to go according to plan. Hope. And wait.
Don’t sweat the small stuff.
I hate that when you are like this, the happiness you get out of getting something right is not an elation, but a mere smile. But who’s complaining, you are not letting yourself down at least. Because out of all the bummers in the world, the biggest is when you let yourself down. You don’t want that.
Here’s to hoping, but not being too hopeful.